San Diego, CA - The overarching sense of doom from Jessica Brown's life is now leaking into her soccer support as everything seems pretty shit, these days.
"I've got two terrible jobs, I live with my parents, and I don't have enough money to go watch any actual soccer game," stated Brown to The Nutmeg News. "My overwhelming feeling that there is nothing for me in this country has now started to pepper my support of Tottenham."
Brown stated that she's been a long time fan of Tottenham Hotspur as she became a Spurs devotee while randomly selecting the team on FIFA 2001.
"I've followed them since I was a kid," stated Brown. "I wasn't a die hard fan at the beginning, but they just became my team. Now.... I don't know.... I just don't see anything good happening... well... anywhere. I don't think they are going to make the champions league. I don't think Harry Kane is going to stay around. I don't think, ugh... you know what I'm just going to watch the games for what they are as a respite from the perpetual doom that encumbers my life and my generaton."
Despite perpetual disappointment being a requirement for a soccer fan and a Spurs fan, Brown stated that she is feeling even less positive about Harry Kane and company after examining her recent jobs, life and healthcare options
"I don't even know what I'm going to do. I can't afford anything. I can't afford to leave. I can't afford to live in a small town, I can't afford to live in the city. I can't afford to go to games, I can't even afford to watch games on TV. All my money goes to student loans, rent to help my parents stay afloat, food and transportation. I'm just a cog supporting the team from afar, and for some soccer fans here that means that I'm the worst. I just need a distraction other than booze, is that so hard?"
Brown stated that her only methodology of watching Tottenham games is streaming them illegally online.
"I guess I'm just going to keep working on work, or something, or go back to school and just bury myself in so much debt that eventually I change my name and move to Guatemala. Either/Or."
The Nutmeg News will have more on this as Brown's love of Tottenham is the only thing keeping her going on the weekends.